Concerns...

Concerns... have been having some of them lately, could be serious or not... i cant tell solidly, or i am just too dumb to realize what it is. One concern is my lovelife, though i think that it's not really much of a problem but should it be time to have one? I'm almost 3 decades old and nothing went on my way... if there was, it was bleak and blurred. On the otherside of it, i am not really looking for one, so why should i complain and think of it as a serious matter? i dont know... i am probably the problem.

Other than lovelife, the future as well is something to think about... i mean i have been talking about it and ranting quite much. Sometimes i get to think about what will happen in 5 years time... even just a couple of years. I dont have a real plan laid out , so it's scary. It's always a matter of a negative view since like what facts tells us that everything that has a beginning has its end.

Other than personal concern is concern on others... friends, family. Too much to think about but likewise, my attitude towards life is just smile and take everything day by day... (which sucks at times and would or may hurt me in the long run).

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Month of Suffering

Too much pain, too much suffering, why do i have to deal such agony for a month?... well, almost a month. I've suffered from severe tonsilitis last June, so severe that it went back after a week of medication... and i was even told by my doctor that i might even go into surgery. I blame myself though for i didnt finish the period of taking the medicines. After that prolonged torture, it didnt stopped there. Bye bye tonsilitis, hello influenza. I am still a slave of drugs and i dont even know if i am even getting better. I can say i did after 2 days but i am not positive enough that will be getting ok... doubts, doubts, doubts... but i do need to believe that i'll regain my good health. I still frantically barks in the office, coughing that semi-caused by the cigar of my boss, which i hate EVER SINCE!!!. I wish he could stop it and do realize how much i suffer everyday.

ok, that's it for ranting about my health.