2 Days After Xangsane's Fury

It's now the 2nd day after the typhoon Xangsane (locally named Milenyo) striked his fury on our land, leaving us with no electricity and water until now (that's back home though and not here at the office). We're still waiting for any information on when the basic services will return but now it seems bleak. Rumor spreading that it might take until Sunday.

We can be literally called "survivors" at the moment... and still striving.

Slap on the Face

This actually happened last week when an online friend got a bit furious of "how his friends look down on themselves". His words are actually compellingly correct, i do look down on myself pretty bad even though if it's not really that of a downer. It's not that i want to get attention or the like, it's just how i grew up to be. I am not an A-student, i didnt belong to the elites, i had some fair share of discrimination, i got bullied, i lived in fear... all the way from childhood. But in the course of life i do manage to uplift my spirit and gain respect of myself and from others but it's not always like that. This time, i got to have some reality slappin' again from one simple fume of a friend. I always say i am fat and ugly, but in reality... it's not that overly true. Come to think of it, i am attractive in my own way, why should i put myself down. I'm just stupid to look for perfection.

The "slapping" didnt stopped there, as if that day was meant to open my eyes. Late at night when i was just channel surfing and ended up watching Oprah, their topic was the same thing... self-esteem. It's like i'm seeing myself there being interviewed.

So apologies to my friend (i did asked for forgiveness while he's fuming, and i did mean it, just dont know if he realized it or not)... and i guess thanks as well.