This actually happened last week when an online friend got a bit furious of "how his friends look down on themselves". His words are actually compellingly correct, i do look down on myself pretty bad even though if it's not really that of a downer. It's not that i want to get attention or the like, it's just how i grew up to be. I am not an A-student, i didnt belong to the elites, i had some fair share of discrimination, i got bullied, i lived in fear... all the way from childhood. But in the course of life i do manage to uplift my spirit and gain respect of myself and from others but it's not always like that. This time, i got to have some reality slappin' again from one simple fume of a friend. I always say i am fat and ugly, but in reality... it's not that overly true. Come to think of it, i am attractive in my own way, why should i put myself down. I'm just stupid to look for perfection.
The "slapping" didnt stopped there, as if that day was meant to open my eyes. Late at night when i was just channel surfing and ended up watching Oprah, their topic was the same thing... self-esteem. It's like i'm seeing myself there being interviewed.
So apologies to my friend (i did asked for forgiveness while he's fuming, and i did mean it, just dont know if he realized it or not)... and i guess thanks as well.
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