Yep, birthday passed, and as i have expected... the only people i mentioned were the only ones that remembered. I was hoping that some of my good old friends like my buddies in college and even my online friends would remember, but hell yeah... none of them did... not one.
I really dont blame them... i should really be blaming me for pushing myself away from them. I have isolated myself from their attention by not talking or starting any conversation and thinking by that way i'd be away from peer stress and conflicts and would eventually be a healing process. Funny that everything turns out the way that i wasn't expecting.
If only i have a birthday wish that would come true, you'ld probably guess already what it is. As for now... i'll just continue to live life and then maybe someday, all will be back as it was. I'll have my birthday next year, so i'll see how it will go by then :). (Actually, i really dont have to wait for that long. Maybe in a short period of time i'd be able to face and talk to everyone again... just dont know where to start. Oh well.)
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